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      Well, it’s quite a long time since I blogged in. 6 months i guess!? Since it’s a holiday, i finally spared some time to update my blog. A bad year to start with, truely it is. This year should be my exam year, sitting for the ‘PMR’ and yet, i’m stuck with a whole pile of heavy work! Some even to be bore with for a whole year, yes, a year! How’d you expect me to score like this? Stress + more stress = anguish! *sigh*

     Terrible, really terrible. Now i’m left all alone with noone to guide me throughout this year. Even my teachers has high expectations of me. Regretted accepting that post. Really regretted! What will happen to me if i failed to govern and shine such a small club, and even worse, neglect my studies? Everything has to be done by myself, and not others. Every desicion i made wrongly will turn everything into a mess. What if my members never wan to cooperate with me? And what will happen to my studies at the end?To be honest, i’m not ready for this…

     And now another new challange pops into my life. That is something natural i guess. But it keeps on bothering me since then. At times i feel so much to tell her how much i like, love her, but i just can’t. For the sake of my studies and my promise, i can’t confess to her. All the while my perception is ‘ As long she stays happy, be able to keep in touch, then i’ll be satisfied ‘ but it’s just so hard to accomplish such thing. For now, i could only lavish her with my warmest care and sincerest support from a distant so that she is happy and protected. That’s the least i can do for now….

     Besides that, some of my trusted friends started to be distant from me. I can’t think of a reason why, but they just simply island themselves from me. Only some who really hold onto friendship maintain a close contact with me. I even notice some instead of befriending me, they sort of used me for some other purposes. I loathe this kind of people, but they are still my so called ‘friends’. I guess i could only bare with them, until the very end….

     For now, only some of my closest friends, be it far away or close to me, supports and understands me. I really appreciate their help all these while, especially when i’m down. Thank you to my two foster sisters, and my friends all around me that help me resuscitate my strength back, just for now i guess…..

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