Memoir of me - Friendship Test…came to an end….
Now, i see the true colours of you, my dear old friend. This test was conducted by myself, to see whether you’re a lost cost backstabber or not. Well, the result is, YOU ARE! Disappointing indeed!
I can’t believe, after years of being friends, from primary until now, you treat me like this!? I’ve trusted you since the day we became friends, and now the result is simply disappointing! Can’t believe that you’re using me all these while. Like the adage ‘ Wolf in a sheep’s skin ‘, that’s profoundly true to describe you. I regretted for trusting you all these while. I wonder whether the words that you’ve said to me about our classmate really cross your mind or not. Now, your demeanour is similar then his. And you’re eating up your own words, didn’t you notice that? Using someone as a bait to lure people’s attention… Whether you take your action at first rather than using me. If you’re in my shoes, how would you feel? You tell me!
Once i recalled what i’ve done and the way I treated you, really makes me wanna erase the past. Erase everything, and begin from the very start. All these while, I’ve been giving you shelter, leisure and my own trust. Clearing your ambivalent mind of yours towards you-know-who. Comforting you when you’re in dispair and in deep anguish. And this is what i get for my kindness!? You never supported me but mock me instead. Try being me for a day and you’ll understand how hard is it! And i know you’re the happy-go-lucky type, carefree, but did you ever consider people’s feelings towards your every single actions that you’ve made? You may think that i’m easy to be bullied, easy to be provoked for your entertainment purpose. But i’m sorry to disappoint you, I’ve been playing along with you, to make sure that i’m supporting you with all that i’ve got, to ensure that we could stay as friends. And due to your actions behind my back, that’s all gonna change now! I’m fed up with you!
The heck, now i’ve seen your true personality. I guess this is a free ticket to say goodbye to our friendship. ‘ Fight fire with fire ‘ this is what i’ll adapt and do the same thing to you, Bastard! Friends….friends…..it’s nothing but words, in actual fact, did you adhere this and hold onto friendship?! I don’t give a damn about it! Be it forever or temporary, i’ll never trust you anymore, and that’s my final dicision! Not happy with me? Try observing yourself in a mirror. If without me, will you be able to stay on and venture forward? You don’t have the guts to do anything. Everything must be done by your friends, and not you. You rely almost everything to your friends, leaving them doing all the dirty work for you. You’re more like tormenting them, and not treating as friends. Did you ever thing about that?!
For now, i’ll keep my mouth shut and bare with you until the very end. But don’t expect me to be as good as i was last time. Like i said, ‘Fight fire with fire’. You’ll get what you deserve, dear old friend….
